Perfectly Chaotic

Have you ever had one of those weekends where everything seemed to happen at once? That was the story of my life. My crazy weekend started on Thursday and ended yesterday. Without going in to too much detail I will try to explain to you the self-realization I had.
To start off this crazy weekend one of my friends got in a fight and ended up getting 18 stitches near his eye. He's fine now, we were just all a little shook up watching the fight. He's a great guy though and I feel so blessed to be able to consider him a friend.
Friday-Saturday was a ton of drama. More than I even care to think about. It was one thing after another. At one point I thought I'd lost my roommate! She was attempting to be a good wing-woman but when she didn't show up at home I thought she'd been kidnapped! I'm so glad we found her and she was safe and sound next door the whole time. Life would not be the same without her!

Then on Sunday the weekend started coming to a nice clean close. A guy that had been a little rude to me, and I returned the favor, apologized and explained why he had been acting the way he was. We spent hours talking Sunday night instead of watching a movie with friends, which we had originally planned on. It was so great to be able to talk to him openly, and have him be so open and honest with me. He is a great friend and will continue to be for the rest of my life. In all honesty he has been an answer to my prayers and it took me a while to figure that out.
Sunday was a very tough day for me, but when it ended I was in a great place. I had the opportunity to go to the temple here on campus and just pray. I realized, from talking to this friend of mine, that my priorities were not in the right place. I was so worried about my social/dating life and school that I wasn't giving my Heavenly Father the recognition He deserves. Once I figured that out everything else in my life seemed do-able. This guy has the potential to be something amazing in my life, and for now, and maybe forever, it will be an amazing friend. I trust in the Lord and I know He put him here to show me that I can trust guys again, even if it's just as a friend.
Just as I thought the craziness in my life was coming to a close, Monday happened. Just a little something to jolt me back to reality. So, for those of you who are close to me, or have followed my blog a little, you know that I have been dreading seeing my ex-boyfriend, Jeff, since the beginning of this semester. Well, Ladies and Gentlemen, it happened. Before you start to worry about me, I'm fine, more than fine, I'm still laughing. I was walking to class on Monday, going the exact same way I have every Monday, Wednesday and Friday since April, and there he was, walking towards me. I was on the phone with one of my best friends, Chris Hurt, when out of my peripheral vision I see someone staring at me. I turn my head to see who it was and there he was, Jeff Watts. As soon as he saw me look at him he literally turned and ran. I immediately started laughing. I couldn't believe how immature he had acted. The moment that I had been dreading since April, seeing him, making eye contact, it was over, and all I could do was laugh.
What a sense of relief! It took me almost seven months to be able to laugh at the situation, to realize that I didn't need him and I really  am better than that. But I made it and I'm laughing.
Now it is Tuesday, nothing crazy has happened so far and I'm really hoping it stays that way. For now I'm just counting my blessings. I have amazing friends. I'm on a beautiful campus. My family is astounding and has helped me out with so much. I'm over Jeff. I'm ready to move on. My freshman year of college is coming to an end. The Lord loves me and really is looking out for me in everything I do. I'm so grateful for the friends I have made here in Rexburg and will miss them while I am away, and also those who won't be coming back. I can only sum up how I'm feeling at this moment in three words: Life is good.